OK here is one warning at the top. There is going to be some ugly language in this post because I am repeating, it is not language I endorse, or use, so please take note of that. Thank you.
I have been reading a lot of conversations, and threads, and blogs, and arguments, and fights here on…
I know EXACTLY what you are talking about. I am from Texas as well, raised Jewish by my Jewish Father and TB Mother. For years I didn’t tell people that I was Jewish because I was afraid of how people would react to it. I was already being hated for stupid, pointless reasons- I was sure that telling people that I and my family are Jewish would have just added more fuel to the fire. And it did, only my closest friends knew that I was Jewish and one of those friends then went and told everyone. The violence towards me escalated so quickly that my parents were almost forced to take me out of public schooling for safety reasons. I’ll repeat that SAFETY, FOR MY OWN FRIGGIN’ PROTECTION. And it only got worse, because of the few other Jews that went to our school HATED my guts because not only was I not Orthodox, but it got out that I was Jewish through my Father’s side and not my mom’s. So while at the same time I was taking some serious shit from a whole bunch of gentiles too ignorant to even spell the word “jew” I also ended up taking shit from other Jews who told me that I wasn’t a “real” Jew. I have been alone most of my life when I am not being attacked by some asshole, my family being the only people close to me. I’m 21 and I have never gotten to be a part of any kind physical community because according to the conservative I’m too liberal, to the liberal I’m too conservative, to the orthodox I don’t exist, to most Christians I’m too Jewish, and to most Jews I’m not Jewish enough. I don’t belong anywhere and don’t know what to do about it.